Bend and Break

why do i love the things
that break me

claw marks on things
i need to let go of

does my talent
for fixing broken systems
require me to be
in a state of constant repair
continual self sabotage

am i really that masochistic

do i yearn to be whole
just to be broken again

aren't i getting stronger
with every chip, crack, nick, and shattering
i rebuild and reinforce

didn't i start out fine china fragile
and built my way to a mix of
terracotta and concrete

or has that constant repair
led me to be hardened so much
i break when i should bend

was the goal not to be stronger
but more flexible